I hate fridays

Warning, this post is mostly me venting and some TMI thrown in.

I hate fridays, hate them. Fridays were the days i had D&C done. Friday was the day i delivered my baby. You know 19 weeks and all the other pregnant mommies are waiting to hear what the sex of their child is.... I got to find out my baby has no heartbeat and is not is heaven.... still leaving me pregnant. I didnt want to do anything rash so we waited and i delivered my baby on a friday. And had a D&C done on a friday. Fast forward 7 months. I am pregnant again - very newly pregnant and am bleeding and spotting (been down this road before) So dr continue to do bloodwork and an ultrasound doesnt give us much hope. a few days later bleeding heavy and in fact my HCG numbers are dropping. D&C done on that friday.

I am emotional and a mess. And ppl dont like that so I put on a happy face and continue t live life. However am completely envious of everyone elses.... Do you know what 2 losses in a yr does to someone? I do. I am a zombie.... walking through life.  just here. barely feeling. barely living. just trying to make it through the day.
*SIGH*