You know when you aren't part of the clique? You aren't part of the group, you definitely dont fit in? Thats me.
I dont know how to describe it, I am sure we all have been there before, have visited this place right, the not fitting in place. the 'you dont belong here' place in our lives right. Well you may visit this place but i feel like i live there.
We have lived in the same town now for almost 5 yrs. And other than a few church acquaintances, I have no real friends. I have managed to scare them all away. I was doing good for awhile and then my little girl went to heaven and I visited crazy-town. So now I have no friends. nice right? I had some friends back in the town i grew up in but even they dont call, visit etc. I do my best to check in with them and visit them when i can, especially since we do go into town to visit family.... but none of them visit me or call.
and now I have a new job where the co-workers are nice and are trying to get to know me, but believe me, I dont fit in. I dont party, I dont drink and I am not in college. so once again I dont fit in.
Its hard for me cause I try - I call people, text people, invite people over and they dont return the phone call, wont accept the invitation to come over and they dont return my texts. Even family members.
I am def not part of the club. A couple of my sisters are actual BFFs and they forget to include me.They have this exclusive club, and I am not a member. I love each sister individually, but get them together and well I am forgotten cause I am not in their club.
oh well that's my complaints tonight.
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