Some days I want to run away. I mean it.
People dont understand that losing my child has made me a different person, someone I dont even know, or recognize myself. I feel the desire to run. To do something different in life, to see and to do.
I feel trapped.
I cant identify this urge or why I am having it. I just feel the need to try different things and to actually feel like I am living again. Most days I just go through the motions and try to make it through the day. That is my goal -- make it through the day.
Lately I see people around me living their life and am jealous. they take chances, they do the unexpected, and yet I see them succeed.
Why do I feel as if life is passing me by? That I am stuck here.... forever.
Maybe it is all of life's expectations on us? We all are trying to achieve the "American Dream" so we spend our days working long and hard and for what?
~Wanting to live~
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